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Posted at 10:54 PM
i really can't describe what im feeling right now, my heart is pounding so hard that it gets harder to breathe almost everytime i move...
once again, i don't know what to do... i want to be happy for her, but it seems that... the more she gets happier, the more i hurt... i always wanted to cry... but i know i should be stronger, for myself. i used to be stronger than before... and i SHOULD be strong... but im not. i know she's happy. i know she's contented... so happy and contented to the point that it's okay for her to let me slip away...
i wish i could be happy for you....it really does hurt like hell to think that you're giving up the only thing that i treasured the most...
i want to tell you that you're being selfish... you're being dumb... but that's what love make people do...
i can't stay mad at you. you know that... and i know for sure that i can't stay like this forever...
someday, you'll know what you really mean to me... someday, you'll understand what im trying to say... someday, you'll feel what im feeling...
i hope you're really happy... if this is what you want to do, then do so... just don't let me know how much you love him... don't show me you're really happy... just knowing that you're not worries me...
if you see me, pretend that you don't see my tears... just walk pass by me... act as if i don't know you... make me an invisible man and i'll do the same...
i'm not hoping that we could be friends again... just stay away from me... help me move on...
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